I've heard tell I have reassurance I will do something I didn't get to do 10 years ago.
People are mean to me temporarily, but it's been too long. They think it's okay they are mean to me because I have some "reassurance" of something in it in a relationship, where I get stupid messages and emotional beatings. Just the fact they talk to me they think is okay, but they don't get treated in a way that hurts them like it hurts me.
I guess there's just no way out, but maybe I don't have enough reassurance, sad to say. They sacrificed me feeling good for the promise I may meet real people someday but not over technology or something. Meanwhile, I suffer problems of my own, and I have to pave a path. I just really dislike things like people saying flat out, "Admit it, you won't get close to anyone," they seem to mean.